[BLOG] Fear of “NEW” | A Cuppa Chat

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Hi peeps! I hope your week is going great.

Today I just want to write you about my fear of “NEW”.
It’s been a month or so since I opened my Youtube channel, and a couple of weeks since I started this blog.And I can tell you that I am loving it, it’s great to share my words and life with you that may give you some encouragement. Also THANK YOU so much for all your support, it means A LOT to me.

However, it’s terrifying to have gone into this Youtube world, not knowing whether I am helping anybody at all. What’s the point of doing it if it’s not useful to anybody after all?

Stepping into this world wasn’t so difficult, but surviving, let alone thriving, does seem tricky. I have been questioning myself if I am good enough to actually be a Youtuber.

Not born with it

Going back a few years… since I was very young, I always wanted to speak in front of an audience. I wasn’t very good at public speaking though. I was and still am nervous, panicky and a little shaky when I speak to a group of people, regardless the number of people in the group. Having done a lot of presentations at University, I decided that I wasn’t good enough for public speaking at all.

After graduating from University, I spent a long long time to find what I wanted to do for the rest of my life; and finally I came up with the idea of opening a Youtube channel,about which I was full of hope and excitement. It is because, as you know, you can reach a wider audience without actually speaking to them!

However, the same challenge struck me again. I become nervous, panicky and even shaky when I speak to a flipping camera! Oh my gosh, can you imagine the struggle?! Filming, checking the footage and editing the videos made me realise of the problem, which led me to question myself even more. Would I ever get better at this?…

Looking at The Bigger Picture

Then, I went to church on a Sunday to listen to a sermon by a great public speaker: the pastor of the church. He is, by the way, amazing at his job; he’s clear, engaging, so natural and even funny. While I was amazed by how good he was at public speaking, I realised, regardless he’s born with it or not, he had to start somewhere to become who he is now. Maybe, I have a chance to improve?

Also the pastor’s word on having a bigger purpose of life gave me a great encouragement to chase my dream instead of passing day by day! So I have decided that my life purpose is to encourage and build people up with my positive words by sharing my life via actual encounters, YouTube and Blogging.

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It’s Your Time

So I want to encourage you as well, that you have a purpose of your life. If you haven’t found one, do not worry, you will find it just as I have by dreaming, hoping and learning so many good things that you can do in the world! You might sometimes feel useless (I did!), but don’t feed that nasty thought. You are born with a purpose like everyone is… you just don’t know what it is yet!

And if you have started, and are afraid of your new career and new lifestyle; don’t worry, you are not alone!
I know it’s sometimes hard and so frustrating that you might want to quit… but hang in there! Through these difficulties and challenges, we will grow stronger. And I am here to support you! 🙂


I hope my words would give you encouragement.
Please leave in the comment what your dreams and how you are overcoming/ have overcome challenges to follow your dreams. I would love to read them all!

Thank you so much for reading such a long story,
and I will see you guys in my next blog. 🙂

Bye! xx